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gOiNg aWaY…

We are going away for the weekend in 3 weeks’ time. I’ve not been told where we are going and it’s driving me insane!

This has happened before. The location has been kept from me – it’s very exciting when that happens – but the control freak inside me NEEDS to know where I’ll be staying!

The other 2 times we went away, the dynamics were not like this so it feels even more frustrating now as a certain person knows how badly I’d like to know where we’ll be from the Friday to the Sunday.

I’ve been told it’s 2 hours, 6 minutes away and that it’s ‘near water’, but it’s not the sea. I’ve asked if it’s each of the counties that I feel are close enough – but I’ve been told ‘no’ to each one.

Time to get back on Google Maps.

I may be some time!

(This picture is nothing to do with the post but I really love my nipples so thought I’d show the world lol 🙂 )

It’s been a good week.

I’ve got very used to ‘being’ submissive again. It’s all coming flooding back with wonderful ease.

One of my rules is that if we’re meeting round my house, I am not allowed to wear underwear and that when meeting elsewhere, I have to ask if I can wear it before leaving the house. It’s been quite chilly! (But very lovely too.)

Yesterday we met round mine and I got the pleasure of sucking on THE most gorgeous cock, ever in the history of cocks. Kneeling on the floor doing that was just divine. I wanted it in my mouth for hours but I have a wisdom tooth still coming through so had to stop as I was in a lot of discomfort 😦

“Unfortunately”, I then got fucked instead 😀

It’s good to be back!

Something new

Well, it DID look as if there were going to be changes, and there are.

We’ve decided to mix things up a bit and now I’m the submissive one.

I’ve been submissive for many years and last year we spent 131 days in a MALE/female oriented relationship and we had a lot of fun. Then, of course, we had a swap around…and had just as much fun.

Yesterday, my submission was accepted and I now have a list of 10 (TEN??!!) rules to follow. No pressure there, then!

In time I will divulge them but for now I must re-acquaint myself with bloody WordPress as I have been told to take over this blog. Doing the occasional post was all well and good but having to do it more often is just going to confuse me as I have a vanilla blog on Blogger and I am much more used to using that.

I’ll be back…

Yet again a long gap in posts, hopefully this will be less so now, now that “changes are coming” or to be more accurate MAY be coming, we wont know yet, not for 7 days.

It is however time for change (hence the clock in the pic, I do think about this stuff you know, I don’t just make it up as go along…..) So I have made several changes to the blog layout, well not so much the layout, more the tabs along the top and a few other bits, some juggling and tweaking, that’s been long overdue.

I know I could have called this post changes without the additional ch ch’s but I came all over over all David Bowie and when I thought of the word changes I couldn’t help but think of the song.

Moving on, the blog now has more of a resemblance of how it will be looking for a while, possibly with some further additions and tweaking but nothing major, although the header pic may well change soon, depends what happens in 7 days.

Just to update you briefly on the events of the past month (since last post) Claire and I have been continuing to be predominantly flatline, with the occasional play, well, until recently, we are now at the stage where things may well change from that and one of us will be offering their submission to to the other for a period of time.

We are still not together properly, but that is getting ever closer and I can’t wait, the change that may be occurring we were hoping to wait until we were together to instigate (or allow to develop) but situations may cause it to be sooner, all I can say is watch this space (apologies, a corny saying, but quite apt)

🙂

Inner Smile

Do you know the Texas song ‘Inner Smile’…?

If not…

(one, two, three, four)
yeh, yeh
yeh, yeh
yeh, yeh
yeh, yeh
yeh, yeh
yeh, yeh
oh yeh
you gave me something
like loving
and took me in so soon
you took my feelings
from nothing
came back at noon
just meet me
i’m ready
to show myself to you
so if i lose my patience
you must try to understand
(try to understand)
if i lose my patience
oh yeh
cause you make me feel
cause you make me feel wild
you touch my inner smile
you got me in the mood
so come on and make your rule
and free me
you make my wishes
as much as
your kisses make me blue
you’ve found my river
now will you
escape away too
but baby
i’m ready
i’m falling into you
so if i lose my patience
you must try to understand
(try to understand)
if i lose my patience
oh yeh
cause you make me feel
cause you make me feel wild
you touch my inner smile
you got me in the mood
so come on and make your rule
and free me
free me
free me
wow wow wow
wow wow wow
wow yeh
cause you make me feel wild
you touch my inner smile
you got me in the mood
so come on and make your rule
and touch my inner smile
come get my inner smile
smile
smile
yeh yeh
sometimes i need to be alone
there’s times i need for you to phone
sometimes you make me feel so high
there’s times i ask myself why
sometimes i need to be alone
there’s times…

It’s been one of my favourites for many, many years. It’s a very happy song and I love it. There are no hidden meanings, no strange parts to brush under the carpet… It’s just a lovely song about being in love.

And I am.

As has been said, we are ‘flatline’, currently… which does rather make us sound almost dead but I can assure you that we are far from that!

Without boring anyone with ‘dull’ vanilla details, our circumstances are primarily down to me. I am separating from my husband (have been for almost a year now) and we are in the process of selling the house. This means that I am not yet living with the love of my life.

He (the love of my life…or the bloke who writes most of this blog!) has already separated from his wife…smart arse 😛

Once all the practical matters have been sorted, we are going to live together. Can we wait…? NO!

We are both hoping for a good mix of ‘switchy’ heaven once we are in a position to do what the hell we want.

If we could time-travel a few months then we would.

Alternatively…just how appreciative are we going to be once we are in our own little bedroom home…?

VERY! 🙂

Or as the picture emphasises, rolling tumbleweed…………….

Not that it is a duty, I was coining a phrase, as opposed to coining a car which is malicious and spiteful, anyway, moving on…………..

It’s been too long (again) but I won’t make lots of apologies,  excuses and comments about there only being one post in a month the way I did in the last post (the only of that month too) it would be far too tedious for those that are still occasionally popping in for an update.

What I will say though is that during this month there will be some changes (to the blog, layout etc) at least, well that’s what I aim to do anyway (or I may get someone to help me, hint hint)

It’s unlikely there will be any changes re Claire and me, we are still incredibly wrapped up in our separate “vanilla” lives and still predominantly flatline, though both continuing to have a little dabble at either being submissive or dominant at times. It gets quite entertaining when neither is feeling particularly submissive but both are feeling the opposite, oh the battles fun we have lol. We are both still incredibly happy and in love too which is wonderful 🙂

We both really want to keep the blog ticking over until such a time that things settle down for us (should hopefully only be another few months) and then things will no doubt find some sort of natural balance (wont they pet) … (couldn’t resist lol) so over the next few weeks I want to try and change the look of the blog, headings, sections etc to more reflect the current status quo (no, not the group) and also so that those of you still tuning in have something different to look at, even if it’s the same but in a different place it will be different, wont it? Not sure, confusing myself now, time to go I think…………

Excess

Not in excess (or INXS) …….. (that lot with the famed lead singer, the “did he or didn’t he die of autoerotic asphyxiation” one)  nor do I mean to excess (no group of that name)……(although there no doubt is, probably an INXS tribute band, not looked but bound to be)

No, the excess I refer to is the excess time that has lapsed since the last post appeared on this blog, over a month, inexcusable behaviour, there was actually only one post in the whole of May (but then you probably know that if you are still tuning in) like I said, appallingly inexcusable and unforgivable, ok, I’m probably overdoing it (just slightly lol) but I was surprised when I realised how long it’s been since the last post.

I have been meaning to post for a few weeks (Claire herself has been meaning to as well) but things really are hectic at the moment, for both Claire and me, hence the sporadic nature of posts at present.

As a (brief) update, things between us have been amazingly excellent (as always) but incredibly busy in a vanilla sense, we are both hopeful that in a few months when things settle down and we are properly together then some sort of sustained pattern may emerge, either way we will both be much more relaxed, at ease and most importantly together 24/7 which is the main thing.

For now we have both been predominantly flatline, although for a period of a few weeks we did maintain the Claire Dominant Paul submissive pattern that I alluded to in the last post, but since then we have both at times been Dominant and at other times submissive, I know that may be confusing for those sticking with the blog and still reading this (thank you) and for both of us it was initially a little confusing but we are both very comfortable with it now, it suits both our needs/wants at present (given the demands our vanilla lives are currently placing on us) and it is enhancing our knowledge of each other (and ourselves) greatly and bringing us even closer together, so all in all its really rather good, we are both incredibly lucky to be so secure and in tune with each other that we can adapt to things around us and react accordingly, making very little sense now am I lol……………..

On that note I will finish the post, to recap (so you know what’s happening, sort of) at present I am not Claire’s boy (full time, only on occasions), nor is she my girl (though on brief occasions she has been) we are both very much flatline and sporadically responding to cues we are each feeling or the other is sending, I’m still making no sense am I……. Suffice to say our love for each other is incredibly strong and growing all the time (apologies if it sounds corny but it’s true)

Ps in case you wondered my nipple is fully recovered and able to partake in any play required of it (as we found out earlier today lol) I think a similar thing would suit Claire (that will provoke a response) ………………………. 🙂