Posts Tagged ‘security’

Before I start I should explain that the pic isn’t me nor do I look like that or have a security blanket (a security something else yes, but I will come to that later) however, I feel it is a relevant pic for this post.

Recently Claire has been encouraging me to suck my thumb (something I haven’t done since I was a child) in various situations and she has also allowed me to have a small cuddly toy to cuddle as well (Florence) …. (Ahhhh, she’s so cute)…. (Florence I mean)…. (and Claire of course but in a different way lol)

The effect of either one of these things would be (and is) quite powerful on its own but when combined, wow, totally mind  blowing.

When she asks me to hug Florence tight while sucking my thumb for her I immediately go into that special magical place, it truly is wonderful. The safety and security it provides me is incomparable and the effect it has on me is immense, it totally reinforces the fact that I am her boy completely, her special little boy that she loves and cherishes dearly, I really am a very lucky boy indeed.

I never envisaged when embarking on my journey into submission that I would gain such delight and reward from things like that, if someone had tried to explain the pleasure they get from sucking their thumb (unless they were under 6 years old, for example lol) I would have never understood it, of course I do now, gosh do I, its truly amazing in so many ways and firmly keeps me in the mindset of being her little boy while also allowing me to explore and develop those feelings safely and with her guidance and support, mmmmmm, bliss.

The introduction of Florence has been lovely too and I find myself wanting to hug and cuddle up to her instinctively now, I don’t need to be asked or told or even encouraged, I just do it, I want to do it, need to do it at times.

Recently I had a bit of a “bratty sub” moment and I was threatened with having Florence taken away for a period of time if my attitude didn’t change instantly, it did, straight away, the mere thought of me not being able to cuddle Florence terrified me, I hugged her so tightly for a while afterwards, almost afraid to put her down in case she was taken from me, very powerful indeed.

 Thank you Claire 🙂 x


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